you kill me with words of hate yet you blame the pain on others never facing what evil you constrain upon my bleeding heart the devils of hell cry out your name in words of praise and glory thy own words are analogous to piercing knives spearing my mind the demons of hatred you cast forth upon me gore at my soul and feed off my sadness compelling you to harm your child once more the joy you get from your far fetched ideals you instill upon me! the happiness in which is displayed on your inanimate appearances murdering my dreams crushing all hopes sending me down the path of lost souls freeing your mind of guilt by way of blaming my only happiness my only love you know not what you do to this poor child of desolate mind this babe crying out for the love so needed by and infant to his mother the moon rises about her skin pale unforgiving fading stars oh the grief you cause! your second child thrown to the shadow by her supposed loves as far from her true beloved as can be by a devil oh the demons! how they torture this blackened soul of mine my defenses brought down by my only loves! your wrath stronger than your presumed true devotion

dream little one dream
the nightmare has only begun

why constrain the guilt you retain upon others as a hope for freedom from the thing that haunts you? wretched are the souls who darken the hearts of others yet i hope you live live on assassins of my heart my life shall condone you let my love live on but keep him from touch only in view be still my heart for i loved you all when i was living but hated you all just the same

thank you oh Mother
thank you oh Father
when i am gone, i will love thee both until rebirth
the new beginning
the new torture.

your intimate kisses coaxing me into a trace slowly i succumb to the omnipotent power of which only you obtain i once dreamed you held me your spell entwined with my soul reality wakes shattering as if the illusion were but glass in mind let me rest let me die no need to be roused by the deep pityless land of men stab my heart wound it as you have always done take my happiness give me pain give me sorrow i dreamed of joyful lands of love of you

What have they brought me but pain?
endless sleepless night of sorrow and remorse for what they have done
oh the sins they commit!
the ideals they wield
they break my heart
one cannot see the pain you feel such as I!
the woe in your heart merely reflects the pain in mine
remember child
as you did when you were young and free
how i long to feel your embrace
whisper unto me intimate lines as if we were in a dream
caress me with sweet words of devotion
the simple ability to see your face will satisfy the greatest hunger
obsession is long and tiresome
quench my thirst for you adoration!
a rose held by quivering hands
pricking the finger of a child once pure
the ones who were to swallow her with words of love murder her
innocence lost
hope denied

i love you

back to sanity and optimism!

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